My day off

So I'm sat at home watching Gino make panettone. It's my day off and so far I've had some sales person trying to get me to upgrade my phone contract (not happening), a window cleaning firm trying to sell me a six week cleaning plan (also not happening) and the posty asking me to look after a neighbour's parcel.

It's as if the whole world knows that I am 'off'. Except for my boyfriend.

I couldn't tell him.

I went home last night with a little bit of sulk still present in my eyes and he picked up on it straight away.

I walked in and shouted upstairs to say hello and from the top of the landing he shouted back, 'what's wrong?'

Do it tell him? Yes, I should have, but I couldn't. I've only been in this job for TWO WEEKS and already I'm coming home with that weathered worker tone. A tone that he is so familiar with, but I will tell you about my previous job in another post...

So I just lied. Straight out lied to him and said that I was 'just tired'. But I will tell him tonight. I promise.

Anyway, I'm sat here thinking about how I got here, in life.

I've had a few rocky years in the world of work. A retail job selling granny coats, a few weeks here and there in a some local pubs and a 'professional' job that professionally 'did me in'. And now this job. A job that requires me to lift information off one database to another 'more clever' one (according to the boss that is).

Now I'm happy to do this type of job for a little while. It's completely different to what I have done in the past  and, until yesterday, it actually gave me the head space to enjoy Eastenders every night without worrying about the next day in work.

What makes it even more special is that I did not have to trawl through hundreds of jobs on online search sites, I just simply walked in. Yes, that simple. I walked in on the Thursday asking if any jobs were going and voila! I started on the following Monday.

I was also told that I would be paid weekly. This seemed perfect! I had been on the dole for six weeks and due to working at the wrong time I was refused contribution based Job Seekers Allowance (I'll go into this in a future post), so quick money to boost my funds has worked really well. I'm just not so sure about feeling so unstable. What if this happens next week?

Could this be the day that I start searching for a new job? Maybe...